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Hey! I got some free hatchlings on FR! It's 4 mirrors, 2 spirals, and 3 nocturnes! If anyone wants one, or hell, even all, I'll give them to ya! Just contact me on FR and tell me which one(s) you want! My name on there is SilverStarOfSC!

I'll probably do this every time I hatch a new batch of them, so look forward to more status updates about free dragons!
Anyone here still active on Flight Rising? I have a couple of Imperial hatchlings that I wanted to sell, and thought that I would check on here to see if anyone was interested before I auctioned them. 

If you are interested, message me and we can make a deal

my lair: flightrising.com/main.php?p=la…
(after typing this, I realize that it quickly just degrades into a huge vent, so, just a little heads up.)

Now, continuing from the last one, I'll be fine. This is because...well, I'm just not that sad. Now, I know that sounds terrible and completely fucked up, but hear me out here. I'm just not sad. I hate myself for it, but I'm not. Whenever stuff like this happened when I was little, I would be bawling my eyes out, but over time, I guess it just slowly started affecting me less and less. Now, whenever shit happens, I don't feel any different from normal, and I FUCKING HATE IT! I almost never feel sad, angry, or happy! I DON'T FUCKING WANT THAT! I'M FUCKING TIRED OF BEING SO GODDAMN UNEMPATHETIC! Whenever this happens, I don't even feel human! I feel like some heartless, EMOTIONLESS BASTARD!! All the time, people ask me why I'm like this, and I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHY! AND I CAN'T EVEN FIX IT! I"M STUCK BEING THIS EMPTY FUCKING ROBOT FOR THE REST OF MY GODDAMN LIFE!! I just want to be FUCKING NORMAL for once! FOR ONCE!

I think that the worst part is that I know how I'm supposed to feel, but I just can't; I know how I'm supposed to act, but I just don't. So I do just that, I act. I fake it. I'll act like I'm sad, or happy, or anything else, but it's all FAKE! I do it just so that maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to seem normal, to not seem like some sort of machine...

But that's all I really am, a machine, a sociopath. And I'll always stay that way, whether I like it or not.

So, don't worry about me, I'll be okay, worry instead about the rest of my family, they'll be the ones that it actually impacts.
  • Listening to: Music
  • Reading: The same books over again
  • Watching: Youtube
  • Playing: Getting back into Halo
  • Eating: Food
  • Drinking: Venom
Okay, I'm breaking this journal into two parts because both things are related to each other, but still completely different topics. On that note, please don't comment on this one until you've read the second, It'll just help if you know the full story. You'll understand soon.

So, I'll start from the beginning. About a week ago, my grandma went to the hospital here in Elberton, and they found out that she had a blockage in her intestines and probably would need surgery, so they transferred to Athens Regional, another hospital. She's been in the hospital ever since then, and my Papa (that's what I call my grandfather) has been with her the whole time. Earlier today (well technically yesterday), I found out that the doctors had given her only 3-6 weeks to live. They're going to still do surgery Monday, but after that, they're going to let her come back home and basically just try to make her comfortable till... well, you know. But wait, there's more! I'm also worried about Papa, because he's been ready to go for a long time, the only thing keeping him here is Grandma, and I'm afraid that once she's gone, he'll go too.

Now, I know that people are going to want to give out their condolences and everything, but, please, I'll be fine, trust me. You'll figure out why in the next one.
  • Listening to: Music
  • Reading: The same books over again
  • Watching: Youtube
  • Playing: Getting back into Halo
  • Eating: Food
  • Drinking: Venom
Fun fact: homophobia technically means the fear of sameness.

huh, I don't know about anyone else, but I would be pretty freaked out if everyone was exactly the same. Guess i'm technically a homophobe...

(I'm probably going to get a bunch of flack for this, but, what the hell, I did my best to stress technically.)
(after typing this, I realize that it quickly just degrades into a huge vent, so, just a little heads up.)

Now, continuing from the last one, I'll be fine. This is because...well, I'm just not that sad. Now, I know that sounds terrible and completely fucked up, but hear me out here. I'm just not sad. I hate myself for it, but I'm not. Whenever stuff like this happened when I was little, I would be bawling my eyes out, but over time, I guess it just slowly started affecting me less and less. Now, whenever shit happens, I don't feel any different from normal, and I FUCKING HATE IT! I almost never feel sad, angry, or happy! I DON'T FUCKING WANT THAT! I'M FUCKING TIRED OF BEING SO GODDAMN UNEMPATHETIC! Whenever this happens, I don't even feel human! I feel like some heartless, EMOTIONLESS BASTARD!! All the time, people ask me why I'm like this, and I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHY! AND I CAN'T EVEN FIX IT! I"M STUCK BEING THIS EMPTY FUCKING ROBOT FOR THE REST OF MY GODDAMN LIFE!! I just want to be FUCKING NORMAL for once! FOR ONCE!

I think that the worst part is that I know how I'm supposed to feel, but I just can't; I know how I'm supposed to act, but I just don't. So I do just that, I act. I fake it. I'll act like I'm sad, or happy, or anything else, but it's all FAKE! I do it just so that maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to seem normal, to not seem like some sort of machine...

But that's all I really am, a machine, a sociopath. And I'll always stay that way, whether I like it or not.

So, don't worry about me, I'll be okay, worry instead about the rest of my family, they'll be the ones that it actually impacts.
  • Listening to: Music
  • Reading: The same books over again
  • Watching: Youtube
  • Playing: Getting back into Halo
  • Eating: Food
  • Drinking: Venom

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I'm Daniel, AKA: SilverStar, a young writer with a serious procrastination problem.

I am only an amateur, if even that, so if I post something tha looks terrible, I'm sorry. I really would like some constructive criticism!

It will probably be a while before I post something that I think is good enough for DeviantArt

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SilverStrangequark Featured By Owner 19 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch! I hope you like my stuff!
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no problem, your art's awesome!

And nice name Wink/Razz 
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I really appreciate your watch cherry blossom Little Shy Bready   
Here are my others if you wanna check out^^ 

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no problem.
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thanks for the watch
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Thank you so much for the watch! <33
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no problem.
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I appreciate the watch!
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